Monday, March 3, 2008

Form and Formlessness

Today we gather in the woods among leafless trees. Their forms, like bare bones, show us what they are made of. I invite you to explore what you are made of by imagining that you are one of these majestic trees. Stand straight with your legs shoulder width apart and feel your strength. Imagine your connection to earth via wide and supportive roots. Now raise your hands high into the air and feel your connection to Source. Feel that, despite the wild winds here today, that you are strong in self. Feel it more. Feel the possibility of new buds upon your limbs, although, now they are only in your vision. Be that winter tree stripped to its substance and feel your strength despite the vulnerability of being seen in your nakedness. That is one of the next steps in our spiral of awakening.

Many of us are feeling vulnerable. Our lives have been stripped of what we once considered to hold our value and our identity - health, jobs, beliefs, homes, relationships, money, parents, children, possessions. Some of our loss has been positive as we made powerful choices for new ways of being and some of the loss has been involuntary as life shifted without our conscious consent. Some of the shifts have been temporary lasting only briefly and some were long term and changed us forever.

I think back over my life the last 5 years and realize very little is the same. My daughters left home to start families of their own. I became a grandmother twice. I resigned from my 16 year corporate job to follow my passion of helping others through life coaching, speaking, and writing. I gained 40 pounds. I let go of a long-term relationship to a man that I still believe is my soul mate but our connection wouldn't hold steady. I moved from my house to an apartment as I simplified my life and got rid of almost all of my possessions. Stripped? Yes, I have felt that. Freed? Absolutely, I have felt that too. The emotions have been widespread. This winter has brought a deeper awareness of the reasons for the path I have walked and the emotions of what I did not feel then have come up for feeling now. Grief and sorrow and joy are all here. Above all of what has come and what has gone, though, is a steady sense of self and a Core presence of calm and peace that never leaves for long. For that, I am most grateful!

What I know for sure is that if we cling to a life that no longer supports us or the greater whole, it will only bring pain. We can hold the form loosely but surrender is the only way to bring a promising tomorrow. We are learning to live in a new way where formlessness gets us into the flow. Whatever needs to happen for us to find that solid self and to live from there is happening.

The people I am working with right now are experiencing a broad range of life, although, the theme of form and formless and connecting to their Core are with each of us. A woman is exhausted as she finds out that her grown son has been arrested again. A man seeks to discover how to balance years of having a woman make most of his decisions for him. A couple risks vulnerability to say how they really feel about the presence of the other and tears connect them. Vivid dreams come in the night and people awaken knowing that something big changed and wondering what, if anything, they need to do. Spontaneous healings are happening merely by becoming aware of the messages the illness is sending. A woman cries because her life has been stale for 15 years and she desperately wants change. Another woman cries because change has been happening so fast that she cannot find her calm within. People have lost their animal companions, their lovers, their parents. People have been found love after years of longing. Many are finding their rightful place and abundance of all sweetness has come to them. These ups and downs are the ebb and flow of life.

Are you living from that solid place deep within yourself? Have you touched the stability of your Core and want more? What is it going to take for you to go within yourself and to love and trust yourself, others, and life more fully? Are you tired of trying to make things happen and are ready to surrender to that balance of form and formlessness? I'm here to help when you get clarity that I'm the right one for you to work with.

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