Clarity Came Monday Morning Meandering

The theme that seems to be rattling through our circle lately is focus, focus, focus! It is the letting go of the distractions and what is not real and letting in what is true. Only you can know what is true for you and that is what is meandering through my mind this precious Monday morning.
As we gather today, I invite you to ask your Core Clarity to join you. We can only get so far in life with our own external means of understanding. Yet our Core always knows and is always ready to lend a helping hand. Can you feel your wisdom within holding the answers you seek? Settle in now and listen to yourself as I meander through my own conversation with my Core.
Having prepared for 28 days, I took myself questing on Friday and came back filled with clarity. Even though I connect with my Core often, there is nothing like a Vision Quest to take me deeper into listening to life.
Core Clarity came and sat down beside me – gave me one of those looks out of the corner of her eye. The look had all the makings of a rude awakening – you know the look, right? That’s when we have been asking for clarity but haven’t been ready to really listen until now so she comes heavily prepared to give it to us straight.
“You’ve been on a good path” she said “and it’s time for changes. "Some of what I am about to say may seem like a surprise but not really – your Core has known. Take a deep breath now and get ready to surrender. This is what is best for the greater good.” “Oh, I see” I said as I prepared myself and watched my discomfort rise and my comfort settle in.
I could feel plenty going on around me in the way of defense. This wasn’t easy and I sensed there was much more. My Core continued, “I’m going to lay a bunch of stuff out here for you, Dane, hang with me and in time you will see where we’re going. You trust me, right?” “Yes, I trust you” I said. My body rattled, my fears rose and words of discomfort popped. She waited patiently for me to finish and then said, “I hear you but your life needs to shift.”

I listened. I learned. I let go. I laughed. I fell silent. I walked in the woods. I sat. I wrote. I processed. I cried. I napped. I laughed some more. I returned again and again to that part of me that holds my answers and knows me so well.

I love conversations with my Core even though she rattles me sometimes. Isn't it amazing how patient and yet direct she is in her approach? Our Core gives us the information we have been asking for straight on without any fluff – meets us where we are and coaxes us around the corner so we can see where we need to go. It can be painful and delightful. It is what we all seek – guidance for what is best for the whole. I took another deep breath and said “I’m listening.”
As the information was delivered, I thought about how much I love the safety and comfort of my life and how upset I get sometimes that I can’t just stay in my comfort zone - that I have to continue to stretch myself and grow. Clarity put her hand gently on my leg and I looked over at her. Tears welled up in my eyes and I sat as my emotions swelled, broke open and flowed. It took me a while but I trust the clarity of my Core so I settled in once again. The conversation continued through every aspect of my life – the shifting and the settling. In hindsight I see this clarity had been coming for a long time. I just needed to slow down and listen.
I'm wondering about your relationship with your Core this morning. If it seems far away, consider asking it to sit next to you today. In truth, it is right inside you but sometimes it is easier to hear its wisdom when we imagine it sitting beside us as a friend that knows our past, our present, and our future as it gives us that gentle look of knowing. When we trust the inner quiet voice and are grateful for its presence, the guidance accelerates and though that is freeing, it can be downright scary - mostly because it's unfamiliar territory.
There is a strong possibility that everything you never knew about yourself will be in your face if you say 'yes' to going where life is leading you but what other way can you take a look at, talk with, and partner with those parts of yourself? I know the risks and responsibilities can seem big. I have been there. I left the seemingly secure corporate world in 2003 after 16 years to follow my dream. It is big work to follow our Core and to do what we are called to do – to risk the knowing for the unknowing – to trust the path of Core clarity. Even though it gets a little easier with time and practice, fear can show its face. Just like clarity though, fear sits next to us and gives us that look – half daring and half knowing. If we turn and look at fear – really look into its eyes – it will back down – it knows its place when we take a step forward with love in our hearts and pure intention in our thoughts, words, and actions. It has nowhere to go except to retreat. I invite you to give it a try. I am here to hear you and to help you hear yourself.
Wishing you the fading of fear, the clearing of confusion and the comfort of your Core,
Dane